i was just a boy /
stumbling / searching / for just a boy /
you saw my desperation / the begging in my eyes
still forced me on your pedestal /
got me high / told me lies /
of self-righteous pity, you are full /
you were just a boy /
stumbling / searching / for the perfect man /
i gave you the lock and key / sold my soul /
down on my knees /
offered an unconditional heart / te amo never-ending
but it wasn’t perfect / you wanted perfect /
you saw / i would never abandon you /
you abandoned me /
my love for you wasn’t silly /
it was maddening /
my love for you wasn’t foolish /
it was wild-eyed and free /
belittle the passion / minimize magic /
i refuse /
get me high / tell me lies /
bend me over / i’ll play the fool /
the joke’s on me /
while all my love pours out on you
my love for you wasn’t funny /
it was passion and strife /
i used to lie awake and watch you sleep /
wishing / hoping you’d love me the next night
you saw / i would never abandon you /
so you abandoned me /
you’re gone / but i will never leave /
never abandon / never give up /
you still have the lock and key /
just show up /
eternity may pass / age to age
i can’t stop / i won’t stop /
desperate / with begging in my eyes
arms remain open / empty /
unashamed /
stumbling / searching / for just a boy /
stumbling / searching / for just a boy /
written word & photography by Ephraim Beck
