at least i loved you / at least i cried /
at least i mourned / at least i tried /
at least i took the time /
at least i said goodbye /
written word & photography by Ephraim Beck
Tag Archives: heartbreak
at least…
21 Aprerased…
5 Aprlosing it all /
the dissolution of hope /
feel it leave /
watch it erased /
move along /
there’s nothing left of me /
witness this fall /
the exodus of hope /
chances flee /
all my love was a waste /
move on /
there’s nothing left to be /
on deaf ears / lands the call /
the expiration of hope /
my heart / an ocean of debris /
already forgetting the taste /
i’m gone /
can’t fit together a single piece /
with death / hope is replaced /
there is no more song /
why can’t i fit together a single peace? /
written word & photography by Ephraim Beck
a birthday boy can dream…
1 Aprstaring up at the moon /
eyes stinging / throat tight /
can you see it, too? /
are we standing under the same light? /
cheeks wet / tear-stained face /
taste the salt on my lips /
prophet boy / what can i do? /
it’s simple / i miss you /
wishing on a star / wishing on them all /
just to feel my arms around you tight /
my heart is never far / it’s wherever you are /
you own my love / dominate my mind /
fall asleep /
looking in your eyes / looking in mine /
from across the miles /
through the darkness of night /
your lips / i seek /
wishing on a star / wishing on them all /
feel my hands touch your skin /
pull you into me /
deep / inside /
a birthday boy can dream /
written word & photography by Ephraim Beck
leaving the haunting…
14 Marwoke up /
where are the echoes? / i can’t hear you /
your voice / only in my mind /
fog lifted /
where have you gone? / i can’t see you /
your face is blurry / close my eyes /
open them again /
gone /
this house / empty /
powers vanquished / memories faded /
pain on repeat / no more /
the curse broken /
begged for you to own my soul / a possession /
thought your ghost was shiny and true /
but your kind of love was just an apparition /
believed you when you said you’d stay /
now the rust and decay is all that remains /
the loss of your spirit / stings /
look back one last time /
but this boy’s leaving the haunting /
written word & photography by Ephraim Beck
for just a boy…
10 Mari was just a boy /
stumbling / searching / for just a boy /
you saw my desperation / the begging in my eyes
still forced me on your pedestal /
got me high / told me lies /
of self-righteous pity, you are full /
you were just a boy /
stumbling / searching / for the perfect man /
i gave you the lock and key / sold my soul /
down on my knees /
offered an unconditional heart / te amo never-ending
but it wasn’t perfect / you wanted perfect /
you saw / i would never abandon you /
you abandoned me /
my love for you wasn’t silly /
it was maddening /
my love for you wasn’t foolish /
it was wild-eyed and free /
belittle the passion / minimize magic /
i refuse /
get me high / tell me lies /
bend me over / i’ll play the fool /
the joke’s on me /
while all my love pours out on you
my love for you wasn’t funny /
it was passion and strife /
i used to lie awake and watch you sleep /
wishing / hoping you’d love me the next night
you saw / i would never abandon you /
so you abandoned me /
you’re gone / but i will never leave /
never abandon / never give up /
you still have the lock and key /
just show up /
eternity may pass / age to age
i can’t stop / i won’t stop /
desperate / with begging in my eyes
arms remain open / empty /
unashamed /
stumbling / searching / for just a boy /
stumbling / searching / for just a boy /
written word & photography by Ephraim Beck
i’ll clean it…
5 Marresurrection /
with one glance /
your powers tore the veil / rolled away the stone /
a glimpse into new dimensions /
your lips dripped transcendence /
to know i have never known /
to blink / visions of sights unseen /
a wild frontier / passion and fury /
sweat and sex /
never even knew i was thirsty /
now you take it away /
hungry / starving for just a drop /
you’re in my blood / changed my DNA /
put your magic in me / i’ll beg /
make me do the work /
spit in my mouth / let me taste it /
digging wells into dry earth /
looking for you and me / “stars forever”
put it in me / please / watch from behind /
i’ll do the work
i’ll even clean it /
would you give me life to leave me for dead?/
i’ll dig until i see your eyes /
the world don’t know it yet /
boy, you’re a prophet /
go deep / spit on it / raw /
our love was thick / it wasn’t easy /
it was just perfect /
please / let me clean it /
third eye now open / can’t go back /
i swallowed your magic/
born again / into my mouth / down my throat /
now i’m begging for a drop /
mysterious boy /
resurrect me / with just one glance
push it in me /
please / i’ll clean it /
written word & photography by Ephraim Beck
kill you
1 Markill me /
the dance is still there / 4 feet / 2-step /
your breath on my skin / a hand on my waist /
moving as one /
kill me /
your eyes are still there / dark / tortured /
little boy inside / peeks out from behind / time to time /
gazing in mine /
kill me /
sleepy time is still there / tangled sheets / bed head /
naked cuddles / heavy breathing / dreams /
never felt so safe / i love you / we said
kill me /
the sex is still there / perfect / perfect
just kill me / it was perfect
kill me /
anger is still there / tears / disappointed /
hurt you badly / hurt me back /
the pain / rage / hate myself / a knife in my chest /
kill me /
the love is still there / distant / ever strong /
first morning thought / last evening dream /
sweet boy / complicated soul / you captured me /
please kill me /
the longing is still there / you own me / eternal /
breathing hurts / eyes wet / i miss you /
you will never leave me / obsession /
kill you /
before you kill me /
written word & photography by Ephraim Beck
